Messy and Blessed

I'm not even quite sure how to begin this one because there are so many layers to it. It will likely span a few posts. About 2 months ago, my world was turned upside down. For those of you who know me, and know me well...you know that I am not the type to feed into drama and I'm not dramatic myself - so there is no exaggeration when I say...I literally felt like I woke up one morning and was thrown down to the ground with the wind knocked out of me and I couldn't get back up. I felt like I was gasping for air. When I had Charlotte, I took about 3.5 months of maternity leave. Currently, I have a very different job than I did with Chloe. It's a more stressful and much busier job. I also am not a full-time employee, I'm a contractor but with a W-2 through an agency...so I would only be receiving what NYS gives for leave - which is 12 weeks at 60% pay. Yes, that's better than nothing - but - let's be real...maternity leave should be so much longer because we go ...

Life is messy. It just is. But, if you choose to see messy as a negative…you will never see how blessed this life can really be. I can say without a doubt that I live my life with no regrets. I have amazing friends and family, a good job with colleagues, team and bosses who have gone above and beyond (especially recently), a beautiful home, a great husband (most days lmao c’mon - what would we be without a lil humor and shade thrown at the hubs), two beautiful and perfectly imperfect daughters. What’s not to love? I have had a lot going on in my life lately…and thought it was a good time (since the dust has settled on some things) to talk about some of the things that people just don’t talk about, don’t talk ENOUGH about, don’t know about and so much more. I most certainly do not pretend or put on a front that my life is perfect - which includes my marriage, kids and relationships. It is far from it…but I happen to think that I have a beautiful, messy life that I am so blessed to be a ...