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Employers who care are hard to find...

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...especially ones who care about your mental health. We are constantly worked so hard and never appreciated. We work until we are physically and mentally exhausted. And then, employers just want more and give less. So - imagine having an employer who values and cares about you. It makes a difference in being able to get through something extremely difficult with actual support. I left you with the fact that I tried to quit my job a few times and it was at that moment through a few convos with my boss that it was clear that I could be going through some postpartum 'something'. Little did I know, it wasn't PostPartum Depression (PPD), but PostPartum Anxiety (PPA) - something I didn't even know existed. You hear about PPD all the time. And, I didn't feel like I was depressed or sad or having thoughts that would be more associated with depression. But, I did feel like something was not right. She is obviously NOT a doctor, but knowing how well she knows me - she could ...
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The Anxiety Bomb - Postpartum is Real

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I'm not even quite sure how to begin this one because there are so many layers to it. It will likely span a few posts. About 2 months ago, my world was turned upside down. For those of you who know me, and know me well...you know that I am not the type to feed into drama and I'm not dramatic myself - so there is no exaggeration when I say...I literally felt like I woke up one morning and was thrown down to the ground with the wind knocked out of me and I couldn't get back up. I felt like I was gasping for air. When I had Charlotte, I took about 3.5 months of maternity leave. Currently, I have a very different job than I did with Chloe. It's a more stressful and much busier job. I also am not a full-time employee, I'm a contractor but with a W-2 through an agency...so I would only be receiving what NYS gives for leave - which is 12 weeks at 60% pay. Yes, that's better than nothing - but - let's be real...maternity leave should be so much longer because we go ...
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Messy and Blessed - Choose your Happiness

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Life is messy. It just is. But, if you choose to see messy as a negative…you will never see how blessed this life can really be. I can say without a doubt that I live my life with no regrets. I have amazing friends and family, a good job with colleagues, team and bosses who have gone above and beyond (especially recently), a beautiful home, a great husband (most days lmao c’mon - what would we be without a lil humor and shade thrown at the hubs), two beautiful and perfectly imperfect daughters. What’s not to love? I have had a lot going on in my life lately…and thought it was a good time (since the dust has settled on some things) to talk about some of the things that people just don’t talk about, don’t talk ENOUGH about, don’t know about and so much more. I most certainly do not pretend or put on a front that my life is perfect - which includes my marriage, kids and relationships. It is far from it…but I happen to think that I have a beautiful, messy life that I am so blessed to be a ...
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